Career choices....

So I am at that stage in my life where everything should be exciting, being in university and studying for a career should be what my life is about at this stage. To some extent, that's where I'm at, I'm currently in university for social work, if i don't screw up i should graduate next June with a social work degree... great accomplishment, the family is happy as I am the first to graduate from university. however, I don't care about social work, I will probably never be a social worker (the field scares me!!), I'm currently applying to go to grad school for a masters in politics.

When I reflect, I didn't start university undecided, I consciously decided that I was going to study social work then go to law school. People who knew me from high school continue to ask me about my law school aspirations as they knew that was the only career I was interested in at that time. I don't think I am still interested in law as a career. In fact politics don't top my list of possible career choices either.

So I am at that point where nothing I studied intensely interest me, maybe I can teach!!!! o no, I wouldn't want to do that, because i currently work with youth and I am not$ interested in the amount of stress i have to endure to get them to do work. Maybe I can become a policy analyst, who knows, maybe that's what I will do, maybe I will teach at a college or university, that again, is a career that I may do, maybe I will change my mind and go to law school after I receive my masters, again, who knows!!!!

The point is i don't know what I want to do, I don't know what I want to do as a career because I don't think I spent the time to get to know myself. For most of my life I was busy making other people happy and didn't realise I needed to take the time to get to know who I am. What I do know is that whatever career I choose it aught not to feel like work. In order for me to be successful in my career it must be so personally rewarding that I don't see it as work,. I must see it as just another day doing something that I deeply love.

Another reason it hardly matters what career choice I make is that I am almost sure that the years I spent in university will give me some power over those who have not spent that time learning the same shit over and over again and I am interested in sharing power with those people or advocating for those people. I don't know where those interests will lead me but hey, I'm young, I just want something that will be personally rewarding to me-to the point where i don't think of work as work and where I can advocate for and with people....hey research and policy analyst sounds good, so does law....maybe I can become a criminal prosecutor.

MAYBE I SHOULD SPEND SOME TIME GETTING TO KNOW WHO I AM!!! Without spending that time with myself; in my own personality and in my own personal interests, i will not know what career to choose. God forbid I turn out like Lyn on "girlfriends" who has degrees and not knowing what to do with any of them!!!